overcoming

the first of my senses that strikes when i wake

is the smell of your cologne under my nose

the scent wavers on the pillows you laid on the night before

but there’s no sight of you anymore

your respect overcame your desire

you left late in the night

this seems to be platonic

but the facts would point otherwise

i wished you would have kissed me

but that wasn’t in His Will

your heart is broken, 

but not over me

rejection is redirection

but for now, it feels only like failure 

i miss the monday where i didn’t know

i’m glad you trust me to hold these feelings

but i wish instead you were holding me

i want to tell you, but i can’t find the words

i want you to know, but i can’t say it first

this doesn’t seem like a crush

it seems much more

to me, you mean so much more